So its been a very long time since my last real intimate post. There is a reason for it but I am not going to go into to much detail.
My life right now is at the very bottom of what is possibly the deepest crevasse I have ever faced. This crevasse is for the most part of my own making and the rest is created by fate and life itself. Mentally I am not in the best place hence why if most of you have tried to call me or contact me, I have not answered. Please understand that I know I have friends out there who are reading this that love me and care for me. But there is nothing you can do for me. I have not returned your phone calls nor answered your emails because I simply don't want to talk about this large invisible elephant that is my life. I avoid all of you not because I hate you or don't want to talk to you out of spite. I am not in contact with you because I don't want to talk about what is going on with me and spare you the shitty details of my life.
All I ask is that you guys please understand that I need a great deal of time to sort my life and mind out. If you are my true friends who know me well, you will understand and give me the space I need without feeling insulted. And if my lack of contact pushes you away permanently to the point where you will never talk to me anymore, then maybe its best we don't have a friendship.
This is not the most positive post but at least I posted.
Who knows when I will post again.
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Carol, take all the time you feel you need. Just believe your own words when you say people love you and care about you. If we didn't, we would not want help. When you're ready, I'm here.
Mom
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