Uh Huh and....

Where have I been? Not around much only because of 12 hour work days and being out of my mind about my life.

All the surface aspects of my life are grand; great job even though I work my ass off, wonderful marriage, and all the Mythbusters I can stand to watch. But as of late there has been a bit of a test to my will and heart. And apparently my opposition is winning.

Let me explain.

For most of my life I have lived with the mentality that all those who I consider my friends, true friends, are in essence my family. It has been said that the friends are the family of the 21st century. And I hold that dear to my heart. And as of late I been realizing how truly I have been living by ideal when I start loosing them. Since leaving Florida I have lost a few people that I considered good friends due to conflicting issues that just can't work themselves out or just a matter of my distance from them. And as more people are leaving my circle of friends, it has really started to affect me.

Today was the nail on the coffin.

Without going into to much detail on this public forum, there was once this wonderful soul that I came to embrace as someone I truly care for and was considered one of my dearest friends. He was there for me at one of my most painful points of my life. And as of today, in my heart I lost him. Though it may not have been throught his own intentional act but nonetheless the act that he did commit has basically cut him from my life. And it saddens me a great deal to know that through everything that I have been through with him, he still did what he did, betraying me. And to me, what he did equates to betray.

It just breaks my heart that another has fallen out of my family tree.

If you are that person and you are reading this, just take these last words as my final: Take care of yourself, your toys, and your passions and life. And I hope you enjoy the company of your new friends. Bye.