Phasing anew...

Since the death of my mother, my life has slowly started taking a turn into another direction. And its not in an unpleasent direction, just a very big change. I can't really reveal what it is but its something that will be very life altering.

And when I think about it I have my moments of uncertainty, doubt, and fear. But that's normal for anyone who is resistant of change.

Sometime life forces you to change, whether you like it or not. Maybe this is it.

I'm still not back to my old self, at least not the way I feel inside. I want to be active again but it seems like my zest for life is gone for a bit, leaving me tired and feeling worn out. I try my hardest to get back into the swing of things and do stuff but I lack the motivation or zeal.

And its so not fair to my other half right now...

But I am trying to press on...

Now if I can only get myself to write these damn 'Thank You' cards that I have been meaning to do.

Damn me.