The title is a song from a cut lost session of Queens of the Stone Age's new album Lullabies to Paralyze. For some reason when I read that song title, it was one of the rare things that made me laugh during this time of my life.
Other small things that has made me break a smile on my face is remembering the silly things Mom use to say or do.
Or when my Nossie does something inappropriate to mention with his back end (its a noise)...
When my co-workers show me such huge overwhelming support for my loss to the point where they would contribute to mom's funeral money and give me words of encouragement and support...
When I hear that Foamy the Squirrel is angry as ever...
And when my dear friend Miss Franval sends me The Llama song and The Lama Song...
The smiling helps. It counterbalances all the stuff I still have to deal with and how I feel about dealing with it.
I never realize how much work is left behind someone after they have pass. You would think its easy just to close a bank account, get a death certificate, call Social Security and etc. But its not. It just make you realize more how dead someone is and makes you even feel more comfortable that you HAVE to deal with it.
And is it a surprise that I get all drained of energy or get a headache after trying to do each of those things? Not really.
I just wish I could get that stuff done faster.
As Tom so wonderfully says "FASTER! GET IT DONE NOW!!!"
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