The end is fucking nigh and it's gonna be alright.

I was asked the following: "If and when the end of the world were to happen on December 12, 2012, at that moment would you be okay with the thought of your life ending, feeling that you were happy at what you have done with your life and what you have up to that point?"

The most immediate answer that came to me, without a slight hesitation, was that I would completely fine, even happy, and at peace with my life ending on December 12th, 2012. Now that is not to say my life has been roses and daisies. I still think that I am living on the western side of Hades at this point. But when I think about what I am doing now, where I am at in my life, I am actually okay if I were to even get struck down tomorrow. I would not be sad nor angry that life was cut short.

I feel that even thought that life has been hard and more full of crap than awesomeness, I nonetheless lived a life. A life full of events, experience, turmoil, love, pain, sadness, betrayal, and unconditional love from animals. I find myself thinking as much as my personal life has been utter crap, reflecting on my horrifically poor life decisions, there was one thing I was always blessed with: working in a field that I truly love. I actually love what I do, including the long hours, endless pain from repetitive movements, shitty moronic co-workers but when it come to my actual job, the care I give to tiny little four pawed creatures, it makes my heart melt. My work in the last ten years, despite all the downs with it, has been amazing. I have learned so much from my work and continue to learn that its so wonderful to be constantly challenged.

It's because of the fact that I have one ONE thing that I love in life, my career, is the only reason why I would be more than okay with the world ending tomorrow. Because I actually found one thing tangible and meaning that has added something in my life. Yeah I bitch about my job but that doesn't mean I don't love what I do.

So yeah, bring on the end of the world. I am ready to stare you in the face and let you end it with a smile on mine.

New Year, New Craptastic Crap

So its a month in to the new year and it's already a roller coaster.

The bullshit...

At work there is someone sending me harassing and threatening emails. Though I know for a fact who it is, the management will not fire the person because they are afraid of being slapped with a wrongful termination suit even though this person is merely as tech one. Nonetheless the emails have continued. Now normally I can ignore emails but when they start threatening my life and they are using my work email to bother me, I am completely and utterly pissed off. Instead of sending these pathetic, weak and chicken shit of emails, confront me in my face. I will gladly walk 100 yards away from the company building and lay your fucking ass out.

So if you are the fucking retard that is hiding behind your email account, step out and step up. And I will show you how much of a fucking bitch I am.

My regular PC just took the biggest shit of it's life. Somehow I (or the motherboard) blew not one but two graphics cards. Now when I turn it on, it just beeps at me. Continuously. Not sure if I want to build a new one or just buy a new computer.

Damn good thing I am buying a 3G iPad when it comes out. I totally need a new laptop. This one is just not cutting it. And please, don't give me shit about it coming from Mac. I love Mac. They are the future of portable computing.

The great shit...

I am working on loosing weight and so far I have lost 10lbs, thanks to the help of my friend Tom the new health and fitness guru of my life. Next step is to get a bicycle and start biking my heart out. That will have to wait till the tax return comes in .

Chinese New Year is in a two weeks and I am totally excited about it. It's going to be the one day I am going to be off my new eating routine to pig out. Nothing like traditional Chinese food to get me going.

Right now, I am knee deep in Xbox gaming and man, I am loving it. Playing between Oblivion, Assassin's Creed 2 and Mass Effect 2. And the winner: Mass Effect 2. Oh the storyline is just amazing. The devs really paid attention to the writing of both the dialog and the story. The cohesion between 1 and 2 are seamless and so well done. And playing this baby on a HDTV is pure fucking joy. And the best part, they gave Joker more lines! "Yeah, go pout. I win."

I also started to study for my LAT and am taking a class for it. And it made me realize just how much I need to study. I hope that this class will help me pass the class and get me a nice check for passing it.

Bitch more later, back to studying.

One more thing, I had dinner with RDJ and his wife last night. I had a total fucking blast and can not belive how awesome they are. I am so lucky to have had an arguement with him! But the best part about dinner, Tila Tequila apparently was there and was sitting a few tables away. At some point she walked by our table and under his breath RDJ said "Wow, she even looks more like a whore in person. Who knew." LOL!

Epic.

When life gives you lemons... you wipe the slate and start over.

Recently I filed for bankruptcy and just last week I got the Notice of Discharge. What that means is that for the next 7 to 10 years, my credit is fucked. But I don't have any more credit cards to pay and all companies that were suing me now have to go away. I'm happy about that but now I have to stay debt free and remain that way while trying to build my credit back.

With that burden gone, I have decided to have a change of lifestyle. I cut my hair to change my look. I taken away certain piercings and added a few others. And I have decided to become Pesci-Vegetarian. It's only been a week and a rough week at that (my roommate made steak and eggs for breakfast and I could smell it in my room) but I held on. I made this decision because I really didn't like the way I was feeling physically and that in return affected me mentally. So no more red meat, chicken, or pork. I still wanted to remain eating fish because, let's face it I can't live without sushi. I can't fully become vegan because I can't live without eating cheese. But Pesci-Veggie I can do. And so far so good.

Now I have to work on my weight and then plan my next goal.